Throughout recovery I have learned one thing that is more important above all else, you must be willing to be honest. You can’t grow if you won’t be honest with yourself and with your sponsor. I sat listening this past Thursday to a panel speak about step four of the recovery process – We make a fearless and searching moral inventory of ourselves. In step 5, we admit to God, ourselves, and another human being the exact nature of our wrong. Yeah, I know it sounds crazy, but there is such freedom in this step.
I think of Step 4 as being like a surgery. It is the beginning of the removal of the heart/soul cancer that’s plagued you for years. The surgeon cuts out that which is causing the problem working deftly so as not to cause any damage to other body parts. And like the surgeon who wishes to keep you from losing too much blood during your procedure is Step 5, which cauterizes the wound.
Wikipedia (2012) explains cauterizing in this way; to [“destroys] some tissue, in an attempt to mitigate damage, remove an undesired growth, or minimize other potential medical harmful possibilities such as infections, when antibiotics are not available.” It sounds so terrifyingly painful, but once it’s done you begin to get better. Afterwards, there is pain and soreness, but ultimately comes complete healing, restoration, and wholeness. Suddenly, the darkness that once held you bound flees. Immediately, the curse is broken; and those long held secrets no longer have authority over you. Yes! That is the power of confession. Think about what James (Biblica, 2011a) wrote in the bible 2,000 plus years ago, “And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise them up. If they have sinned, they will be forgiven. Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed.” God knows what He’s doing. We can live in community and be our real selves. We can make confession and find continual healing. When we confess, light is piercing the darkness; and the Kingdom of God comes. There is breakthrough.
It is no wonder John wrote in chapter 1,
7 “But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin. 8 If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. 9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. 10 If we claim we have not sinned, we make him out to be a liar and his word is not in us” (Biblica, 2011b).
There is healing in the verbal act of confession. I encourage you today to not be swayed by fear or being “found out.” If you have a sponsor, nothing you can say will shock as the majority of the time they’ve been where you’ve come from, or at least they can identify with you. No judgment will be passed. Confession is about freedom and never condemnation. Don’t be ruled by denial or fear. Own your side of the street. You’ll begin to see the part you may have played in the hurt. Your verbal confession breaks the changes of the past on your future so that you can live in harmony. I believe within each of us lays the impulse and longing to be really known and free. Steps 4 and 5 will take you there. You’ll never be the same. In fact, you may just step into more of who God made and designed you to be. Now go. Confess, and live in freedom.
Biblica. (2011a). James 5. NIV. Retrieved May 12, 2012 from http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=james%205&version=NIV
Biblica. (2011b). 1 John 1. NIV. Retrieved May 12, 2012 from http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=1%20John%201&version=NIV