Throwing Up

Working it Out.

Pastor Bob talked about Psalm 13 this past Sunday, and it stuck with me.  Does God hear me when I call?  Why do I have doubts?  Why is my faith shaken?  Why do the wicked succeed?  All valid questions David asked of God.  He was brutally honest with the Lord, more so than I.

David threw his heart up to God…literally vomiting all his doubts and fears and concerns at the feet of the Lord, but he (David) didn’t run away nor turn from God.  He kept close.  Why?  How?  Because he was completely honest with God.  He didn’t hide his true feelings from God.  He wasn’t afraid to tell what was on his mind.  he ranted, raved, cried, and questioned.  This amazes me.  God know that we are frail and weak.  He knows full well that even the most loyal of us who follow him have doubts and questions that go unanswered.  Many of us, on the other hand, tend to think our faith has to be fully perfect now and that we can’t or shouldn’t have deep questions, but how can that be?  Paul said we work out or faith daily with fear and trembling?  Phil. 2:12b-13 Work hard to show the results of your salvation, obeying God with deep reverence and fear. 13 For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases him.  My new thought today is just how God uses our questions, fears, and doubts to draw us near to Him.  God knows we’ve got questions that often defy our faith, but time and again His word calls us to return and remain in Him…abiding.

God is for us, and He is working out the details within us when we stay the course with Him.  I don’t know how He does it, but I know He brings peace, calm, and rest when we throw our hearts up to him.  He steadies the course, and he steadies our feet.  When we throw our hearts up to him and turn toward him as David did, light pierces the darkness.  God comes and reminds us of who He is and settles us firmly and securely in Him.  We are not shaken.  We are set on the solid Rock.  When we give our hearts to God and turn to him in trust, our relationship with God becomes stronger and more intimate.

Can you trust God with your heart?  Can you be brutally honest with him?  Do you know that He wants to hear from you?  He’s concerned with all that concerns you.  His desire is for you–a living, moving, breathing relationship where you can trust him with all your heart.  Trust that he can handle it.  Nothing is too hard for him to hear.  He knows the depths of your being.  He knows full well what you’re already thinking, believing, questioning, and doubting.  Throw your heart up to God with laughter, tears, hurt, dismay, disillusionment, heartbreak, heartache….He can take it all.  He’ll give you beauty for ashes and rest for your weariness.

There is within each of us that moment in our faith where we have more questions than answers.  There is the impulse to turn away from it all and seek shelter else where, but stay.  Stay with God.

Psalm 107
28 Then they cry out to the LORD in their trouble,
And He brings them out of their distresses.
29 He calms the storm,
So that its waves are still.
30 Then they are glad because they are quiet;
So He guides them to their desired haven.

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